Hit someone, or cry?

I am so angry and I'm not even sure why. I've been really volatile. I've already swung for someone once, only Sophia managed to stop me.

I'm not speaking agin. I realise now that I do that in times of great need, to control myself. When I am silent, it blocks out everything around me.

Cadets tonight. Oh God. Think I get away with wearing my hoodie for much longer? No, neither do I.