EXAMSTRESS!!!

The teachers are telling us to start revising, then piling homework on us that has nothing to do with revision... Qu'est ce que le point?

I'm under so much stress tbh. Gran's ill, Dad's depressed/stressed/volatile, exam stress. I'm going to fail. I haven't done any of the course, and the stress/depression/bullying by teachers and students alike is really bothering me.

Why do they care if I'm engaged? They don't know me.

New Year... New Illness?

Diabetes? How odd. I suppose it fits. The constant thirst, the tiredness, the weight loss, though I'm eating a helluva lot more. The craving for sugary drinks, and savoury food. I've completely gone off sweet foods. They just make me feel sick half the time.

Went to the doctors today. He was a complete asshole.
I FUCKING HATE DR OSTROWSKIE. HE COULDN@T JUST TAKE A BLOOD SUGAR TEST, OH NO! Big fucking needle to the elbow. Wouldn't stop bleeding.And then he shouted at me for smoking, even though the rest of the doctors have told me it's not a good idea just yet due to all the stress.And then he fucking attacks me with a fucking flu jab. THE BASTARDING PRICK! The results won't come back until Monday now. Which means if I do have it, I'll have to be dragged outta school... Deep joys..."It's very unlikely..." WELL THE OPTICIAN TOLD ME TO GET CHECKED OUT, AND I HAVE ALL THE SYMPTOMS ASSHOLE!!! GRR.